I know there’s always time when you struggle a lot in college life. well, this is another semester. I thought this semester would be rather easy since I only take FYP and another 2 subjects which is not about engineering. but I was wrong.

I've been stressing out since week 3 from FYP report, interview, society test, EIA report and all.

I’m eating watermelon now.

I’ve been making this biodiesel for my FYP but then none succeeded. either it didn’t turn to anything or it got lumpy and smelly and one even looked like caramel pudding! It took like 2-3 days to make one sample and I’m supposed to make around 5 samples a week. Now that I could only make 1 in a week I don’t know how this semester’s gonna end.

The lab is crowded now that everyone’s started. All equipment is being used here and there. People walking around trying to find their chemicals, using oven, borrowing stirrer, asking the lab technicians and so on. There are two labs for chemical engineering, one in level 1 and another in level 5. All the labs are equipped with the chemicals and equipment we need. I’m so pissed when someone just take limited stuff in one lab and take to their lab without asking permission. and what’s worse is that they’re gonna use it for days.

I just hope everything goes well until this whole thing ends :(

A dream is just a dream when you just speak of it without giving it a try.

I’m still not used to crowd sometimes. it makes me feel uneasy, like I don’t know how to act in front of people. I don’t know if it’s normal for everybody else or just me. But knowing that not only who has this “phobia” makes me feel I’m still normal. Anyway, my case is not the worst though. I’m still hoping I could improve myself.

ugh, and one more. Last week I just attend a workshop in Monash. They were talking about engineering future, like how we should apply our knowledge in work field. I hate it every time these guys telling that “even though you have good grades in college, but you can’t interact with your colleague, you won’t go far”. I hate it. It’s like they’re saying that there’s no place for someone who just likes to laze around feeling comfortable at home, stand quiet, not going out, but instead we have to go out socializing and those stuff. shut up.

so I had 2 convocations this week, Monash and VU. I was going to see valdi, vina and ericka. but apparently more people I know were graduating. Seeing everyone was so happy graduating makes me feel I gotta finish up my degree soon. 4.5 years is just too long. now I’m kinda bored in sunway. anyway, the convo was fun especially we got free foods in Monash convo. I really wish my graduated friends the best after college. I’m gonna miss you guys :)

oh and I met my high school best friend, Pijah (: her sister yumni is graduating too so she flied from brunei with her mom too. I’m glad we’re still as close as we were in high school though we hadn’t seen each other for long. It’s really nice to see her again =)

by the way with her in NZ now I wanna go there for holiday. Must be nice if I can stay at her place and wander around together. gotta save up from now! teehee.

At times I have strengthen my heart, but at times I just want to rely on people I love, people I trust

At times I think everything has a positive meaning, hiding behind every cynical truth. but at times I just want to see what’s in front me.

Sometimes I trust you, sometimes I don’t.

Any act of following a person, being obsessed, writing about them, taking pictures, recording their action and any movement is considered as stalking.

however for the media it's called journalism.

Eating favourite food

Trying new recipe

New freshly changed bed sheet

Trying a new cloth

Tasting new cupcake flavour

Relief feeling after exam

Travelling a new country

A small family gathering

A sleepover

Coming home after semester ends

Eating mom’s cook

A hot vanilla latte during the rain

Watching favourite movies

Getting ghost bum over an awesome music

Discovering a new favourite song

Going to theme park

Looking at old photos and remembering its sweet memories

Eating ice cream

Reading a breathtaking book

For me it’s the small things you enjoy doing that makes you happy.

So I just finished another long tiring day and I felt like eating pizza, then I decided to order domino’s. it was raining outside so I wait until the rain stopped (I just pitied the delivery guy to send pizza in the rain). when I didn’t hear any more rain I ordered from online. after about half an hour the domino guy called me to come down so I rushed out. I was surprised to find it was still raining quite heavily. I felt bad suddenly. I expected the delivery guy to be pissed off and a bit grumpy.

then to my surprise, that delivery guy came with a big smile. he was kind of laughing after arriving with his head soaked with rain. I apologized to him for ordering under such heavy rain, then he said “it’s ok, no problem”, grinning. somehow I wanted to smile myself. I mean, he had the right to be pissed but instead he chose to do his job willingly and happily. :)

to those who are sincere with whatever they do, I wish you a blessed life :)